I apologize for the sparseness in my posts lately. As many of you already know, Cortney battled a staph infection at the beginning of May. She had been admitted to the hospital for 3 days and placed on heavy duty IV antibiotics. When she came home, she had what appeared to be a hole in her leg from the infection. We were sent to an infectious disease doc who then sent us to wound care. Cort had 5 visits there and the decision was made to send her to a plastic surgeon. I guess I live under a rock, because I had no idea that this was who might help her to heal. He recommended a skin flap and told me she would be in the hospital for at least a week. I shed many, many tears because all I kept thinking was, "How did this happen? How did my perfect, happy girl end up with this? " But I went ahead and scheduled the surgery as this seemed to be our only option.
So this past Friday she had surgery number one. The doc surgically debrides the wound and gets rid of all of the dead tissue. Unfortunately, the infection had gone down to the bone, so it is deeper than we thought. Thankfully, it did not affect the bone.......a blessing. Because of her Cerebral Palsy, the doc said they couldn't do a skin flap. Her skin is too tight. Instead he would perform a skin graft. This is concerning because when we originally met in his office he had stated that he preferred a skin flap because they don't just bring skin over, they also bring over the vital tissues as well. That is what aids in healing. A skin graft is just skin. Which means there is a chance it won't take. That will be performed this upcoming Wednesday. In the mean time they hooked her up to a VAC machine. And from what I am hearing this machine is pretty amazing. It helps the skin tissue to revitalize and make new tissue. So I am praying that everything I hear is accurate and it allows her skin to heal.
It has been extremely stressful these past couple of months. And everything is complicated by the fact that she is in a wheelchair. All that keeps running through my mind is, what if I put her through all of this, and it doesn't work? Don't go there, my family tells me. But I've already gone there.
She is extremely uncomfortable, and my heart breaks for her. My sweet happy girl is miserable and it just kills me.
I will be at the hospital the rest of the week. I won't leave her at night. My husband gave me a reprieve last night, which was a nice break. But he has to work so I will be on "duty" til the end of the week.
Please pray that she heals from this.
Thank you for your e-mails, texts, PM's etc. My heart is grateful for all of you.
Michele my heart breaks for you and your family and prayers are being sent up for Cortney's healing and peace for you all.
ReplyDeletePrayers are definitely going up for Cortney, all who will be caring for her and for your family. Take care. I'm glad you shared so that others can pray. My thoughts are with you.
ReplyDeleteYou have to realize that if you go through with it and it does not work, you still did what was right for her and gave her a chance. You are a great mom! My prayers are with you guys right now.
ReplyDeleteWill be lifting you up in prayer.
ReplyDeleteSending prayers and hugs!!
ReplyDeleteHugs and Prayers for all of you! ♥♥♥
ReplyDeleteLifting her in prayer for complete healing! Also praying for guidance for her medical team as they help her heal! Hugs and prayers for you too! I know how exhausting and stressful it can be!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for everything you and your daughter are going through. Very hard to deal with. Sending prayers.
ReplyDeleteBreaks my heart to hear this! As a mom of a special needs daughter myself, I totally know what you are going through. Try to stay positive, and hope for the best! Your daughter will be in my prayers!!!
ReplyDeletePraying for you and your family. Take care.
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ReplyDeleteThanks for the update! I always love to visit your blog for inspiration and hear about your lovely self and family. You are in my thoughts and your sweet gal too :)
ReplyDeleteMichelle, My heart goes out to you and Cortney. She is such a ray of sunshine and her beautiful smile can lift others spirit! I will be praying for her healing from a loving God. Also, for you to keep strong and keep the faith through the strength of the Lord. Blessings and Hugs ~
ReplyDeleteMichele--remember that, no matter what, GOD'S GOT THIS! I know how scary, how frustrating etc---and then to have drs misinform you----!!!!! But God has a plan even with this! You and yours are in my thoughts and prayers! Blessings, Sharon
ReplyDeleteSending healing thoughts - I hope it all goes well!
ReplyDeleteMichelle my heart is breaking. I am sending all the positive thoughts I can towards you and your beautiful daughter. We are all praying that this operation is a great success and for a quick recovery.
ReplyDeleteI don't comment often but I have been following you for quite some time and love reading your posts about your family. My prayers that the surgery goes well and her recovery is easy. Hugs to all.
ReplyDeleteI've been following you regularly for quite some time and I don't comment on your lovely work as much but my heart goes out to Cortney in this stressful time and I will say a prayer for her!!! I pray the surgery goes well and the healing time is short and sweet and that you can continue to be strong for her :)
ReplyDeleteThis is a scary and stressful time for you and your dear, sweet Cortney. Hugs and prayers going out this moment.
ReplyDeleteMany prayers for you and your family... Best of luck!
ReplyDeleteHappy, healing thoughts for sweet, beautiful Cortney! Please know you & your entire family will remain in my daily prayers Michele!
ReplyDeletePraying for a successful surgery and complete healing.
ReplyDeleteSending hugs and prayers for both of you! I hope everything goes well for her and she has a speedy recovery!!
ReplyDeleteHi there from Scotland , UK. Saying a prayer for Courtney. Lord be merciful to her and heal her up quick! Hugs to you xx
ReplyDeleteMichelle, my heart goes out for your and Court. Will be praying for her to heal and for you to have strength to stay strong. Take care of yourself!
ReplyDeleteSending hugs and prayers to you and your family Michelle!
ReplyDeleteYou poor thing - you, your sweet girl and your family are in my prayers
ReplyDeletePrayers for your family! I am praying for your beautiful daughter. ��
ReplyDeleteMy heart and prayers are with you and your family!
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts and prayers for you and your beautiful family. God gives you strength and bring Courtney to a speedy recovery
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you, I know that complications for children can be excruciating for our own hearts. On the other hand, I pray for not only you, but for Cortney, as she gets the best help possible and that her recovery is quick and as smooth as possible.
ReplyDeleteMaking decisions for our children has to be one of the hardest tasks in our parenting responsibilities. My prayer is you find peace in the decisions you have made--which I'm sure are the best! Cort is so lucky to have been blessed with such a loving and competent family ~~ many children aren't so fortunate. It goes without saying, my prayers go up for Cort as well! May you feel surrounded by peace, love and confidence as you make your way through this.
ReplyDeleteI was in my Bible app and a 3 day reading plan for Hospital Bed Prayers came up. I felt it was a sign that I should send this to you. I hope this helps just a little:
ReplyDelete"We’ve been here before-- the stinging smell of hand sanitizer, the squeaky plastic chair bed, the constant beep beep beep of pulse-ox monitors up and down the hallway. It’s all so familiar that I almost stop registering the details. White noise.
But I feel the pain and relief and dullness of this place acutely. I know what it is to hand my screaming baby over to doctors with hope and fear tangled together in my heart. I know what it is to hear “yes, but” and “no, unless.”
And, dear God, I know what it means to want her healed so badly that my insides pulse with a constant, throbbing pain.
And, like Jairus, I get on my knees and beg Jesus. There is no dignity in my begging; I crouch next to her hospital crib and, like Jairus, plead on behalf of my little one."
This prayer just really spoke to me and although Cort is not a baby, she is, however, your baby girl. I just hope I do not offend you or that I am out of line.
I am so sorry that your beautiful daughter and your family have to go through this terrible ordeal. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.
ReplyDeleteGod's still in the miracle-working business. No matter what happens, He can take care of you and your daughter. Don't lose faith!!
ReplyDeleteHi Michele, I am so sorry that Cortney is having such a hard time of it. She is such a beautiful child and I have watched her progress over the past years. I will be praying for her quick recovery! One more thing......I would like to make and send her a card. Please contact me through my e-mail and let me know if this is o.k. and the information of where to send it. I could not find a contact info button on your blog. Hugs Lori
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My daughter also has CP and is in a wheel chair. She acquired a bed sore in the hospital. This became infected with MERSA a type of staff infection. Hers also went down to the bone. We were sent to wound care and her amazing doctor has done debredments on the wound and placed her on a wound vac. This machine is a wonderful invention for healing wounds. It heal them rom the inside out which is the proper form of healing in these situations. It's a slow process but is not painful. He explained a flap of graft is the last healing choice. His specialty is strictly wound care treatment.
ReplyDeleteMy prayers go out to you as we face this challenge together with our girls.
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Praying for all you Michele. Courtney is blessed to have you as her mom!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you!! My mother has MS and she had a wound on her tailbone that would not heal either she had to endure the same route of a wound vac and a skin graft! She was in the hospital for a very long time to recover!! Thinking about you and Miss Courtney!!
ReplyDeleteMy heartfelt best wishes go to you all. I cannot imagine what you have been going through but be strong which I know you are. God Bless you all and make Courtney better soon.
ReplyDeletemany, many healing prayers for her and praying for strength for you and your family. I've spent many a day/nights with my son in the hospital, and one thing to remember is to be sure to rest. You are not helping anyone ifyou are too tired to make good decisions and keep her safe and comfortable and not scared.
ReplyDeleteIt's a scary thing and I know she's getting lots of love and support from family and the hospital staff.