Wednesday, March 25, 2009

I Dream......

The thing I love about scrapbooking is that it captures not only pictures at that very moment you snap the camera, but the emotions that go with it. I have many beautiful pictures of my kids. But sometimes the pictures are more than just a picture snapped at their birthday party or at a holiday function. Sometimes they stir emotions inside of us. As you already know, Cort is mentally and physically challenged, and as much as I adore her, there is still a part of me that wonders what kind of a person she would have been if she weren't disabled. I can't help myself sometimes. So rather than denying those feelings, I scrapped them.


Journaling reads:
I dream of the girl that should have been. When I allow myself to. It is painful to go there, and I don' t often. I wonder if she would have been athletic, an actress, or on the honor roll? Would she be constantly connected to her cell phone like most girls her age? Would she be graceful? Would she be confident? Would she be interested in boys already? Would she be as happy as she is right now? When I look at the smiling face, I dream of what could have been..........but wasn't.
(Stamp is by Crafty Secrets)

16 comments:

Julie Masse said...

Beautiful page Michele!! I love the honesty!!

Jackie said...

I love your page...it's so beautiful! tfs!!!

pescbrico said...

What a wonderful page, you know my little girl has a physical handicap too and you are right it's painful to think about it and we do anyway so thanks for sharing.

Barb said...

What a touching and beautiful page, Michele!

Amy said...

Beautiful page Michele and journaling...I think scrapbooking can be so liberating in a way...getting those feelings out that are so hard to say..thanks so much for sharing!

Maria Jesus said...

oh very very nice layout, very touching journaling too. It's good that this hobby scrapbooking also is like a therapy.

MJ

Sandy from Ukiah said...

What a beautiful little girl you have... it doesn't matter what she might have been, it's what you have made her today... a beautiful charming young lady, not afraid to face the world...

Darlene (SCS:akronstamperdpk) said...

Oh Michele ... this brings tears of sadness & joy to me. Your honesty is to be commended ... I'm sure there are as many sad days as happy ones. All the posts of seen of your sweet smiling daughter ... she always looks very happy & content ... I'm sure God has a plan for her!! I know she makes ME smile!!! Thanks for sharing!!

Libby Hickson said...

Just beautiful, Michele.

Marisa said...

Michele, this is such a touching layout, especially with the sentiment. It goes straight to the heart.

You have shared so many moments with your daughter through the layouts you have posted. She looks like a happy, cheerful little girl who is growing up.

Take care my friend.

Marisa

Jocelyn said...

Michele, what a touching LO and the journaling is so very touching!!!!! Thank you for sharing this with us!!! Have a blessed week, sweet friend!

Cricket said...

Michelle, I love your page, it is beautiful!

smiles,

Abra Leah Cross said...

That is a poignant moment captured beuatifully.

jackiestamps4fun said...

What a gorgeous page! Very touching...it must have been hard to journal your feelings. You captured them perfectly.

Hugs,
Jackie

Rose Ann said...

Gorgeous page!! Wow!!

Godelieve said...

You dreamed long enough to create a beautiful page about your girl...