Good morning! I have a layout to share with you today and an update on Cortney.
First, I wanted to share this layout of Cortney inspired from Christina Aguilera's song, Beautiful.
When you have a disability, that is often what people see. Sometimes the only thing they see. It is difficult for many to look past that.
Cortney has had numerous struggles in her life. Therapy, surgeries, people being less than kind to her, and the countless stares. As her mom it has been difficult to watch. I am her guardian, the protector, but sometimes I just can't shield her from everything.
It can be easy to be on the "Pity Potty" and stay there for awhile. Because as much as I love Cortney there are still those moments when I think, "What should have been." How would she be if she were a typical 19 year old? Would she play sports? Be on the honor roll? Give me hell? ;)
What about all the things she (I) will miss? No weddings. No dad walking her down the aisle.
No children for her.
Her life is so different than the one I had imagined for her when I was pregnant. 19 years later and I still feel the loss.
Do I think about this all the time? Certainly not.
But it creeps in from time to time.
Most of the time, I see a beautiful girl who loves to model.
Who has touched the lives of many.
who has taught us unconditional love.
To slow down and enjoy all the little things life offers.
Hilda Burke from Angel Eyes Photography photographed Cortney last week to help expand her portfolio.
She brought her son, Eric along for the shoot.
They were truly amazing!
They were kind.
And Eric didn't mind one bit acting a bit crazy with his arms in the air to get Cortney to laugh.
This is when I remind myself that we are blessed.
We have met some selfless and amazing people.
People we probably wouldn't have met if Cort had been your "typical" 19 year old.
Please visit Hilda's blog.
She is an incredible photographer and she has numerous photos of Cortney.
As well as Cort's story.
Thank you for letting me share a bit of my heart.